Confession

If you're looking to take a peek into my love life, too bad it ain't that kind of confession. It's been a long time since I've updated my blog. I'm even surprise my last post was made in 2014. Since my last blog, a lot of things has transpired in my life, and unfortunately instead of ups and downs, it's more like downs and downs.

And like always, I like to whine and then hate myself for it. And today, I'm going to whine about my fifth and worst semester I had in my current university. So far my experience here is nothing short of unpleasant. Honestly, it is not due to the lecturers, some of them are great actually, and I look up to them, even for the dietitians and nutrition lab technicians. It is not due to the surroundings, despite being somewhere where I could not understand their dialect (yes, third year here and I still struggle to understand), yet you can feel the sincerity and passion of the people through their tone. It is somewhat due to my social experience here I'd say.

One of the shortcomings I have in me is that I would work very hard for something I am very interested in, and if I am not, or I resent it, I would definitely not put in any effort into it, not even the effort to give a damn about it. And this sums up my whole semester. Zero fucks given whatsoever. But here comes the conflict within myself, I've always said I don't care about my academics, however, deep down inside, I would still have high self-expectation towards myself. I'm not someone particularly genius or smart, and I've never tried to strive to be the best in academics, though if I paid attention in class, or went through my notes seriously for just once, the knowledge would've left enough impression in my mind for me to breakthrough the obstacles in the final exams. In this semester however, I did neither both. I did not pay attention in class, and believe me, I tried my best to in some of the classes. I can't say the same for the effort I invested into doing revision and going through the notes though. Even if I'm feeling demotivated and procrastinated in the past semesters, I would still go through the notes once. This semester? N. O. N. E. I didn't even bother reading anything, and the worse part is, the questions were not that difficult actually. If I just studied for a little, I'm pretty sure I would just ace the exam.

Anyway, the semester is behind me right now, and I hope I can be a better me in 2017 and in the coming semester. It would take a lot to change, and a hell lot of motivation to recover from the slump in the fifth semester, but hopefully everything is not too late to change. And I simply would end my long time coming blog post with a simple phrase.

Life sucks.

Special SHOUT-OUT!

This is a special shout-out dedicated to someone whose name rhymes with aunti. =P

          First of all, you might already got this figured out all along, I bluffed. This IS my blog. Never thought you would figure it out so soon though, maybe I revealed too much to you? Anyway, to prove that I'm sorry, guess what, I'm gonna let you to have the chance to throw some punches at me however and whenever you like, provided you can land a punch on me (I doubt you can!). So bring it~

Back to school

          Today, I went back to JS high school in my school uniform, which was quite odd since I am graduated from there last November. But it was to sit for my examination so I could do nothing about it. Speaking about examination, the questions aren't actually that harder, in fact it's easier! However I doubt I can do well in it, as a matter I couldn't do well because I made insufficient preparations on top of my weak knowledge about this subject.

          Apart from the examination, I did get along with some of my teachers again. In the morning, I went to have breakfast with SooSoo and LCC joined in later. At first we talked about my future, what disciple should I get for my degree. I told them I'll take my degree in IPTA if I'm not taking on pharmacy because the only condition my mum's willing to let me go to IPTS is that I'll take pharmacy (obviously it is the disciple of her choice, not mine). SooSoo advised not to take pharmacy, instead I should take psychology, which is the disciple of my choice. Regardless of my STPM result, I should put psychology as my first choice when I'm applying to IPTA. Among other teachers who think that psychology has a bright prospective in the future, he is the one who gives me the most support. LCC said it isn't a bad choice, and I should go for it. I guess I might, and I'm determined to take psychology.

          Since I was going back for examination, of course I met a handful of friends back at the school. Every male friends of mine didn't undergo any appearance changes, but female friends, wow, did they became more beautiful than they were before. Who is the most beautiful I dare not say, cause Danny might be reading this, hehe.

          And the grass in the field turned into awfully brown coloured due to the lack of rain.

          Will be having another examination on the coming Tuesday, so wish me luck.

Cheerio.

Short term goals: Update

          It's about 7 weeks after I posted "Short term goals?", and I think it's about time to examine what have I done within the course of 7 weeks.

Goals:

1. Learn how to swim. Breaststroke, that's what I learned in swimming classes. What I didn't learn though, is to grow fond of water, perhaps I would learn to like it some day in the near future. If it's possible, I'll learn freestyle too.

2. Blog about the years in high school. I don't know is it I own a poor memory, or is it the lack of memorable events in Form One and Form Two, because I can't really write anything about these two years. I hope to blog the stories in accordance to the years so the stories has not been published because of the stories of the first couple of years. I know it's a poor excuse, but I'll get to it soon.

3. Gym membership and workouts. Gym membership, no; workouts, yes. I downloaded apps from Google Apps Store and have been working out at home. It's amazing the things you can get from the internet these days.

4. Read some books. I bought books but not novel for a change. "Persuasive Writing", "Thinking, fast and slow" and " The Science of The Mind" are the books I bought.

5. Work as a barista at Starbucks. Sadly Starbucks is not hiring at the moment.

6. Hope for best in my next check-up. "You'll to come back every six months to check whether there is any further distortion." My spine seems to be fine but regular check up is inevitable. I wonder how my cardiac cells and other cells in my chest is faring and going to fare with radioactive rays passing through them every six months.

          So these are the progress of my short term goals. Later on I may not have enough time to accomplish them as I will have other things to get busy on.

¡Chau!

Oh God, my THIGHS!

          I have attended six swimming lessons up to now, and I found swimming to be a challenging and tough task. I like the challenging part of it, but the tough part not so much. Besides coordination from the all four limbs, I found out stamina is essential for swimming too through the hard way. What's the hard way you ask? I can barely move now because my thighs are so so so sore! Analgesic cream should soothe the muscle ache and sore, but they are so sore, the cream applied on them doesn't seem to have any soothing effect at all. However, swimming is not that tiring actually, the real culprit is the exercises the coach made us do before we go swimming in the pool. All the squatting, jumping and kicking, they sap the energy out of my thighs, leaving them sore and painful.

          Nevertheless, I learned breaststroke, although I can't swim that fast. Anyway, I'm aiming for freestyle next, and I will continue practicing my breaststroke.

¡Chau!

Short term goals?

Day 2 after STPM. And I'm doing nothing......

          My seniors spoke about having the feeling of being lost after STPM examination because you lose your goal and objective, but I said "Don't you worry, it certainly won't happen to me.". However, the feeling they mentioned has started to haunt me. Why you ask? Mainly it's because of the lack of computer games. Playing computer games has and will always be one of the things I'm passionate in. Unfortunately, I don't have the ability to afford it, neither the sufficient internet speed to download it (Piracy is bad!). So I'm stuck with a computer that has games in it, but I'm bored with them already.

          Since I won't be able to place "playing computer games" as one of my short term goals, I figure I should list a few other goals as my short term goals.

Goals:

1. Learn how to swim. I've never grow fond of water, whether it's drinking it, or swimming in it. Nevertheless, my mum keeps on nagging me about leaning how to swim because she said swimming is good for my spine and it cures scoliosis. So, learning how to swim made it into my short term goals, not only to get my mum off my back, also it would be useful some day in the future I guess.

2. Blog about the years in high school. Seven years, seven long years I had spent in Jit Sin High School. Some may think it is a prestigious school, but for me, it's just the same as other schools in the town, perhaps slightly better, or not. Anyway, within the years I had grown up in height, weight and of course in terms in knowledge and mental maturity (my Form 6 class monitor didn't grow in mental maturity XD), so I might wanna reminisce about the years I had been through there.

3. Gym membership and workouts. Apart from swimming, my mum also encourages me to go work out at the gym because again, doctor said workouts for my shoulders might be good for my spine. And I want to build up some muscles too, cause I'm a bit skinny and underweight.

4. Read some books. But definitely not STPM reference books, I have had enough of them, but I'm saving reference books from the third term in case I'm retaking the papers. At the moment I have fixed my eyes on a few of books, for example The Hunger Games trilogy, Assassin's Creed series and Hitman series too. However, I'm into dragons more, so Inheritance cycle might worth reading again? And I have the Beyonders awaiting to finish as well.

5. Work as a barista at Starbucks. Working experience, salary and the best part, knowing how to make varieties of coffee. But chances are I won't be able to accomplish this goal, because I'm not the decision maker in this situation, it's up to the store manager to decide whether I'm hired or otherwise.

6. Hope for best in my next check-up. There's nothing I can do actually except hoping for the best. Despite reluctant to get my body cells being shot by X-rays, it's the only way to find out how my spine is doing. Pray harder and may the Gods shine on me. (I'm not Christian nor a Muslim, I practice Taoism, so don't get offended by my words.)

          So far these are the short term goals. Maybe I'll add a few more, and maybe I won't. Who knows what the future has in store for us? 

¡Chau!

Hai Guys =D

          If you're reading this, first and foremost, welcome to my humble blog. Even though I have always wanted to have a blog of my own, it's the first time for me to do so, and to be honest, I can't offer anything except plain texts, maybe a couple of photos, and things of my life. Since this blog contains the little and big things in my life, I think that it's only fair to implement a few rules. Fair enough?

RULE #1 : This blog is for you and you only, please do NOT share it with someone else.

RULE #2 : Just like Las Vegas, every story in this blog stays in this blog. Never bring it up in real life, not even to me.

RULE #3 : Everything expressed in this blog is from my perspective and please do respect perspective of others because I do believe in freedom of speech and I do respect your perspective.

RULE #4 : Even if we do not have the same perspective in the same thing, you don't have to verbally abuse me or even sue me in court, because there is something called "Close" button on the top right corner, or the top left corner if you're using Safari.

That's just about it. I sincerely hope that you'll abide the rules. Your cooperation is appreciated.

And that's the end of my first ever blog post. ¡Chau!

P/S: Hello Danny. XP